Week 2 of coming back from a month long office trip and am still disoriented.
Had a huge fight with husband on some petty household issue! Of course, the disappearance of both the house maids on my single off day heated up the argument.
The office doesn't feel exciting anymore too. The same old issues, the same old complaints and the same helplessness. People have salary issues. So do I. But who do I go and whine it to? And how do I promise them a better pay when I, myself, am not sure about my hike.
In the subconscious, I know that I have to be patient but the old nagging feeling is back. If I don’t do something new every single week, it unnerves me. I feel I am not learning anything and not going forward. I wish for complacency but its beyond me….a good thing?…Can't really say in this situation!
The romance on the other side also beckons. But somehow, the charm has gone out of it. Again…there is nothing new to add. Every word, gesture and action is predictable.
Bottom line, I am afflicted with the typical human nature of wanting more.
The only difference is this time, I am wanting for words in quantifying the "more".
Had a huge fight with husband on some petty household issue! Of course, the disappearance of both the house maids on my single off day heated up the argument.
The office doesn't feel exciting anymore too. The same old issues, the same old complaints and the same helplessness. People have salary issues. So do I. But who do I go and whine it to? And how do I promise them a better pay when I, myself, am not sure about my hike.
In the subconscious, I know that I have to be patient but the old nagging feeling is back. If I don’t do something new every single week, it unnerves me. I feel I am not learning anything and not going forward. I wish for complacency but its beyond me….a good thing?…Can't really say in this situation!
The romance on the other side also beckons. But somehow, the charm has gone out of it. Again…there is nothing new to add. Every word, gesture and action is predictable.
Bottom line, I am afflicted with the typical human nature of wanting more.
The only difference is this time, I am wanting for words in quantifying the "more".
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